During my seemingly endless computer crises yesterday, I was constantly reminded of Mercury Retrograde and how this is supposedly a better time to edit and refine rather than initiate. All those computer glitches reminded me to back up, delete files, and INCREASE ONE’S BANDWIDTH.
I’m not sure why, but I also found myself often remembering Oscar Wilde’s famous last words (several variants are reported) that were “Either the wallpaper goes, or I do.”
[I also love that he ordered the hotel’s most expensive bottle of champagne and quipped, “I am dying beyond my means.”]
And in looking those quote up, I just now realized that tomorrow, November 30th, is the 111th anniversary of his death. (Despite backward-spinning Mercury, lots of synchronicity here.)
Today there were no computer disasters — Thank God — but I did reflect a bit on the “wallpaper” of my thoughts, meaning the background patterns that we all just take for granted. The “givens” in other words, many of which do not serve me as much as I’d like. IE, the Mercury Retrograde MENTAL stuff that could stand a little editing and refinement.
I really have to say that my Human Design exploration has been incredibly life-changing — even more than I’d thought — because it’s causing me to reexamine so many basic assumptions and patterns.
Essentially, the “water that the fish swims in but can’t see” might still require some cleaning, and for me what I’ve been learning has been a huge refinement regarding my own core assumptions.
I once had a friend who was always asking for love life advice but was never willing to consider that other people –– specifically the dudes she was trying to date –– might actually have entirely different perspectives and desires. For her, it was a given that everyone wanted the same things from relationships as she did. She felt that people who said they didn’t were just in denial or else insane.
I had an interesting Mastermind Visualization experience recently where I tried to imagine how other people (some known to me directly, others only through their historical reputations) might look at a situation I was facing. I was actually quite astonished when I took on the perspective of someone well-known who genuinely found the situation invigorating and inspiring (versus my entirely depressed and paralyzed reaction.)
It’s funny because I know that my awesome friend Genevieve and I usually agree on almost all things taste-wise — from movies to restaurants to people — and yet we part company on sushi (which I love and she hates.)
So it’s these core beliefs — the givens or the wallpaper of my life — that I think are so tricky sometimes to adjust (or I guess, plaster over) because it’s hard to recognize them as being present.
Sometimes, though — certain kinds of wallpaper/limiting beliefs are just a little too hard to ignore for ANYONE to endure.
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