Pay No Attention

First, one absurdly simple solution to a problem occurred today –– a spa MIRACLE as it were –– that I’m not going to relate in full here but … let’s just say it’s VERY good news and solved my biggest cash flow problem of the week effortlessly and unexpectedly and will result in more FUN with a great friend.
Perhaps I’m censoring myself a bit because I actually just stumbled on how many people actually read this blog, and it turns out to be more than just myself, Susan, Belle, my mother (or so she says) and Dan.
This weekend after branding session #3, I immediately incorporated our new positioning statement on the slider on the home page.  I hadn’t ever adjusted anything on that page before — it’s the only thing in the template that’s not intuitive and super-easy — but in doing so, I  also stumbled on the actual part of my site that lets me see how many people have actually visited various pages.
Of course it doesn’t reveal who reads which post, just the number of visits or clicks or whatever –– and maybe it’s all spammers –– but it’s taking me a moment to adjust to my shattered illusion that I’m not corresponding in a “Dear Diary” way.
In any case, it is worth noting that the progression of events today was a clear prioritizing of ALIGNMENT first — meditation and actually doing some yoga before checking the emails and swinging into ACTION — followed by a major insight about a recent situation.
This is a rather weird thing — and again I’m being discrete since there are apparently more than five people reading this –– where I felt that someone I care about had behaved rather badly.  This is something that hasn’t happened to me in such a way in at least 5 years, so that it has taken me aback — that is until today when suddenly the entire pattern of it all became instantly clear and I lost all attachment.  There was actually an Oprah level “Aha” moment about it all, which somehow really took the remaining charges out of it.
Ten minutes later my discrete spa/cash flow miracle appeared.
And then, with the subconscious-distraction (according to David Neagle) fire put out, I actually got a lot of work done on the screenplay.
Of course, I do credit newfound insight this morning as the impetus for my progress, but also the fact that I’ve been bribing myself all day with ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT.
I feel like I’ve watched most if not all of the series before and it’s just so good.  At 21 minutes an episode on instant netflix, it’s the perfect snack between phone calls and emails and editing pages from the script.
Like a donkey with a carrot, I promise myself another 5 pages or two challenging calls, and then an episode, and as simplistic as my self-bribery is … it’s actually working.
And as for the title of today’s blog, well, I guess it’s a reminder to myself not to look behind the curtain regarding the readership — or maybe TO look behind the curtain so that scary patterns can instantly dissolve.
About that I have no illusions.