One More Love Letter

This Letter from my great friend Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy––the writer known as SARK––is so beautiful and moving, it’s worth sharing in its entirety:

My most beloved partner, husband of my soul, co-author & co-teacher Dr. John Waddell, aka Mr. Wonderfull, died on March 5.
He slipped away so elegantly,  surrounded with love, pain free and with a smile on his face.
It was the physical end to his healing journey with stage 4 colon cancer that had begun 9 months earlier.
John’s personal philosophy was that he welcomed cancer as a wise guide and teacher. In that way, he was not fighting it, nor did he lose anything by physically departing.
In fact, it was the opposite. John’s whole life expanded as a result of it.
He delved into false beliefs that he had held, and did some deep psychological shifting and healing.
He worked with master healers and teachers.
As a result, his ability to give and receive unconditional love multiplied exponentially. In that way, John’s illness was for him a solution, and not a problem.
Our relationship and love deepened even further, and we lived the 6 powerful habits in our new book, Succulent Wild Love, more than ever.
It was a rough healing journey at times, and extremely rough at others- interspersed with quantum conversations, new revelations and realizations, and LOVE, always love.
So much love flowed between us and through us! And of course love is everlasting.
John created a joyful healing journey as often as possible, and when it didn’t feel that way, which was often, was able to apply the 6 habits in most cases. He did get frustrated that he wasn’t able to have a different healing outcome, and also was able to surrender completely by the last days.
Thank you for all your beautifull posts and messages- John is already very active in the non physical realms, and there are all sorts of uncanny things happening- so I’m sure he’s aware of them.
I am doing well, interspersed with terrifying waves of grief and immense relief that we’re both free from the physical care and emotional space holding that all of this required. My family and friends are gathering close and holding me high.
My self love and exquisite self care practices continued throughout John’s illness, so I am just expanding on those now. I have a lot more to share about these subjects of healing and caregiving in the future and kept a journal throughout.
I have the best kind of support systems personally and professionally, and feel extraordinarily blessed by all of you, who lift me up and help me celebrate my life and love and creative offerings. Thank you so much for your enthusiastic support of Planet SARK.
Please know that I am feeling and appreciating your love and care, and will welcome continuing to receive anything that you wish to share in the weeks and months to come, as I experience and integrate this astonishing loss.
I know that something tremendous is coming next, and I know it will take time. Meanwhile, I am allowing all my feelings to be present in my emotional family.
Love Forevermore,
Susan (aka Mrs. Wonderfull)