Last night I had an inspiration — really a re-inspiration/re-realization: it’s high time I started my days by focusing on my 1) alignment and 2) my creative work before I do anything else.
A decade of teaching private yoga in NYC + my own basic personality + other projects, have fostered a total habit of waking up each morning and first thing plugging in: messages, emails, facebook etc.
In NYC, this was necessary. I had 1 to 3 morning clients every day, and it was essential that I check emails in case someone was canceling or requesting a time change. Same thing with the evenings. In order to function in my job, I had to be constantly reachable/checking-in — and the same applied to whenever I was filming, or directing/producing a play, or on a design project. To really deliver, I had to be available.
Now, however, I’m focusing on the screenplay and new writing, and there’s technically no need for me to be reachable in the early morning.
There are lots of fun contacts then — ranging from Dan and Susan texts and my facebook universe — but it’s not really necessary.
The main thing is that it 1) causes me to be re-active (rather than creative) and 2) immediately starts me on a path of dealing with all the minor challenges of my life — ranging from putting out temporary fires to endless promotional opportunities.
One thing I’ve realized via all my recent work with David Neagle, is that this is really perhaps a subconscious strategy to keep the status quo maintained. My subconscious wants to keep me safe and what better way to do it than to have me arise and work on maintaining and promoting my current universe.
It feels “responsible” but it’s really limiting me because I soon become entrenched in the “what is” rather than expanding fully.
So today I vowed to not check in to anything or with anyone until I’d done some significant work on the script.
Belle helped me out by waking me at 5 am (again, still rather rare) and rather than going back to sleep, I stayed awake and edited the screenplay until 8:30 or so. I slept until 11 am which felt beyond decadent, like something a teenager on summer break or a rock star might do.
It was rather extraordinary, however, because it completely shifted my energy from responding to the world into a focus on what I wanted to create.
I had a consult earlier in the week — 2 actually — with David Neagle’s staff and I think I facetiously asked them “why is my subconscious out to get me?”
Steph, the lead coach, gave a very clear explanation that it wasn’t quite doing that but rather trying to keep things exactly as they were, even if there are obvious problems, because that known reality is safe.
Thus, it did feel like I was battling some kind of Responsibility Demon by being semi-unreachable until 11 am PST. It was CHALLENGING not to peek at my email “just in case” someone really needed me for something. It did indeed feel that I was battling some EVIL ENTITY out to sabotage my life by tricking me into checking in and not forging ahead on my Vision.
What’s particularly funny about this is that a very sweet and well-meaning member of the David Neagle Miracle of Money private course forum sent me a private message last week with the best intentions related to this topic.
I’d posted some questions about specifics of my current challenges related to the course. Someone had asked “What would David say about _______” and I (facetiously) responded that I thought David would say “You are a unique and special case and are probably possessed by a demon.” [IE, his answers are always “You need more sales” and “You need to charge more” to every question, thus I was being wildly — and I thought OBVIOUSLY — ridiculous.]
The person, however, private messaged me to say that they actually had high level connections in their archdiocese who were internationally regarded and that they could hook me up with a legitimate and real exorcist if I wanted.
Well, first of all, even I were to take the rather tremendous leap that Old School Demonic Possession was a reality, it seems even more infinitely preposterous that the possessed would actually be posting on Facebook about their need for exorcists in their status updates. (Aren’t we — the possessed — mostly writhing around in bed and floating on the ceiling?) Posts like “Just had sushi .. .Yum!” are sorta in a totally different category than “Anybody have any tips on getting rid of the Demon Azaizal who has possessed my body and soul?”
The Forum Friend was very sweet, although misguided, and we cleared that up relatively quickly.
Nonetheless, I personally did equate something of the nature of casting out a demon this morning when I deliberately fought against the temptation to check email and voicemail and facebook and texts until I had written. Maybe someone should have thrown Holy Water on me.
But I succeeded. And it was awesome. And it’s totally shifted my energy and perspective.
And even though I don’t have a specific Money Miracle to report a scant 12 hours later, Belle does have a Food Miracle of her own:
Tonight at dinner, rather than just her usual bone or two with some meat on it from Hillstone’s kind kitchen, she manifested a magnificent hunk of meat of her very own — frankly a larger portion than they give to human.
Honestly — that dog is MAGIC (I just pray she’s not secretly working with Satan on any of this, but then again if she is, I have connections now to solve that situation.)
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